新年快乐

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Happy Chinese New Year kepada yang menyambut

Semoga tahun ini lebih baik daripada tahun sebelumnya

Aamiin~!

Lately emosi aku sangat roller coaster

Entah kenapalah kan

But one thing for sure

I'm so sad that I'm still like this

Too afraid of the uncertainties of life

Not that I'm comfortable being in this phase of my life

Cuma aku sendiri tak tahu

Ibarat dalam perjalanan ke destinasi yang hendak dituju

Dengan Google Maps ditangan, tapi tiada talian

Makanya kau terkandas

Berlarilah ke mana pun, kawasan itu sememangnya tiada servis 

Sedih, kan?

I don't know why I have to rant it all out

I just need to get it off my chest

Macam boleh gila hari-hari nak nangis

Rasa macam nak mati pun ada

Tapi bukan siapa peduli pun

Keluarga ada, kawan pun ada

But well, everyone's already been through their own hardship

Everyone's plate already a little bit too full for themselves 

Apalagi nak ditambahkan dengan masalah orang lain

Jadi, teruskan menangis

I thought last year was bad enough

Didn't know this year could be worse

God, it's only January aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!

Please make this year better for me, for everyone!!!

I'm just a sad piece of meat

Barely keeping myself alive from day to day

As much as I wanted to be dead

I want to do so many things in this world

I want to go to Mekkah and never return

I want to go to Switzerland for a year

I want to travel all over the world

Going to places that not really a tourist attraction

Because there's what reality are 

Not some sugar coating life about that particular country 

Habis tu? Nak hidup ke nak mati?

Entahlah, hidup ni memang penat, hadap je lah

Nanti dah mati, lainlah ceritanya lagi

If I'm being asked "are you happy with your life?"

My answer would be a long ass paragraphs of essay 

Maybe a lecture, worse, a novel with 482 pages

Ha! 

But for now, my short answer will be

Alhamdulillah, I am where God wanted me to be

Not that happy, but not that sad, just something in between

As long as I still have bed to sleep, a roof above my head, foods to eat, car to go anywhere

Alhamdulillah, I'm good

Too many things that I have to be grateful for

Too many things that I may took for granted

People said, comparing is a thief of joy

I couldn't agree more

It's just that sometimes we do need to compare ourselves

So we can feel that slap on our face

That we have a lot to be thankful for

Rather than wanting more and more 

Then maybe it's time to re-listen to Lies Greed Misery by Linkin Park 

hahahahaha tiber sangat!

Alright, I'm feeling quite okay now

Thank you for reading whatever it is that I'm writing here

Ampun maaf zahir batin

Phir milenge chalte-chalte

新年快乐 !!!